This is unfair. This is so unfair! We were promised that in February we'd get more Jonna and instead we get this... You know at first I thought this was a blog post to announce your official return. How low a fall did fate reserve for me... Why do you let me dream, let me plan, if you're going to destroy everything in the end?
What about Duckz Chronicles? What about FFFFFugitives? What about the Podcast? Why do you have to come and do this when I'm feeling so high. When I'm excited with all the great things we're doing, with all the prospect for fun things we could do. What will I do with those? Especially the two former which were things of the two of us more than others. What will the Supreme Duckz Commander do without the Super Duck, can you tell me that? What if I try to continue/realise those stories and they're not as good as they could have been? What if, worse yet, I never get to make these happen? I know you'll still be around sometimes and I appreciate that, but you wouldn't make this kind of announcement if you didn't expect to have to abandon these ideas.
Jonna, you and I have a long-standing friendship. You were the first person to read the Story of a Minifigure from start to end and you welcomed me to the KotOS most warmly. Indeed, all the time we spent roleplaying together, chatting, reading and commenting each other's stories was very important to me. We didn't get to hang together that much lately, but you still and always will hold a special position in my heart.
But there's something that's troubling me and that is your calling our stories silly. Saying you've been goofing off. Stirling called it staying as a child. I don't find it silly, goofy or childish. Indeed I find that we must not lose touch with our inner child. Damned will they be those who do. But this isn't eve a silly activity, one of a child's. We imagine like children, but write as adults (underaged people don't be offended or feel excluded, you know what I mean). I'm not sure what kind of process went into making this decision, but I hope that it didn't lead you to leaving writing entirely. You've been saying you want to be an author for however long I know you and if that ever changed then I don't know to whom I'd be talking to anymore.
I remember there was a time I told you about a story of mine and how I wasn't sure if I'd write it after all. You told me (and I'm probably getting it wrong and it won't sound as good) that if God gave me some ideas of stories, then it is my duty to write them and do my best with them. It doesn't matter whether the work will be accepted or not, I should work on it, for God has a plan of it. Now, I probably butchered that, but I think the meaning is apparent. And you who said it will certainly know what I mean to say. Have you forgotten these words? Are people's stories no longer inspired by God and therefore worthy of being explored?
I don't think so, but something is different indeed and it seems you and Stirling can't stay here any longer. And for that reason, I want to take those words and turn them back to you now. Not so much about the KOTOS stories, but for you and Stirling in general. Do not forget that God created everything and therefore in a way he planted these ideas in your heads, too. So, they should be important. They are divinely inspired and can sing to his glory. But only if you try. So, never stop being you.
Also! Conquackulations on the job. I hope that it is a job that you can acctually enjoy and it isn't something you do out of pure necessity. I hope that for whatever reasons you decided to find a job, whatever that is that you hold true to what you really want for your life. You and Stirling, can you look into your hearts and see what you truly are? What you truly long for? Don't listen to what others may expect from you, whoever they may be. Don't listen to what you think God might want for you. To certain minds that can be very misleading. If you've read Jane Eyre, Saint John is an example of this that comes to mind. No. God does not want for you what you think he may want. He wants what is truly good for you. And I can't see that being something that makes you unhappy. For even if you're being called to do something unpleasant, something which you would not have desired otherwise, if it is your heart telling you you need to do so, then you won't be unhappy about it. For you will know you're doing what is right, doing what you can. So, follow your heart. Wherever that leads you, I'm sure God will be there. But you must truly listen, first. Do not be offended, please, if you find these words too assumptive and redundant. I don't know how much we'll get to talk now, so I'm sharing my mind fully.
You once posted this you know.
While I know that since I feel the same, too, one of us should be proven wrong in the worst case scenario, I hoped that perhaps we wouldn't have to part ways at all. In a way, I suppose that won't have to happen. We're bonded now in a way that during the LMB era we couldn't have done that much and we shall be friends for life. No matter where each of us winds up, we can't be truly parted and if there's the humblest of means of commuincation, we'll find each other again. Still, I can't but feel sad for this departure. You'll still come once in a while, but things will definitely be different and I'm scared of that.
However, all your talk of silliness and uselessness makes me all the more determined to create something that the world will notice, something that shall speak through the world in other ways than through our narrow channels of communications. And when that happens, through that, I will call to you and I hope you'll call back. And if I fail, I hope one of my fellow Knights will succeed. But better yet, I want us to succeed together as a unit. To show you that the Knights aren't simply a silly little group goofing around. That it can leave its imprint to the world. We shouldn't have to do that to persuade you, but since you won't otherwise we must try for something bigger.
Jonna. Thanks for all the good times. I will never forget my fellow red-button-presser, my fellow author, my friend. Thou wilt always be in our hearts wherever thou art. Strange Odd Shadow, Kate, Magical and Sarah will be there for thee, too, if thou ever needest them. They will welcome thy company always. Fare thee well and may thou have good luck in your endeavours.